Missing My Old Days ....

Good day , my friends !
now, I want to tell you some of my feeling ..

The truth ,
that I ...
missing them ...
they , from my old days ...
voices ,, from the past ....

I miss my day , when I doing tasks from My Lady ...
I miss my day , when I'm being an admin ...
I miss my day , when I give an advice to the mods ...
I miss my day , when I answering questions from members ...
I miss my day , when I scolded the wrong newbie ...
I miss my day , when I patrolled in the forum ...
I miss my day , when I joke together ...

because ...
now I'm all alone ..
I think I can runaway from this conditions ,
by joining the Shucha FansClub ..
in fact , I still all alone ...
no ones in there that care about me ...
even I've tell some great ideas ...

then, if I remember ...
I runaway to Ganbate too ..
I think, with being a sub-mods ..
I can do something like I did in the past ...
but , I can't ...
no ones hear my advice ..
no ones hear my voices ..
then again ... 
I'm all alone ...

I've been runaway to many places ...
but , as always ...
I ended up , ALL ALONE ...


dear My Lady ,
where are you ?
maybe I can see you , but I can't feel you ...

dear My Lord ,
did your words that you tell to me was true ?
maybe I'm as loyal as you thinking , but I feel that you aren't fully believe me ..

My Lord and My Lady ,
If I say ; "I want to go"
then you say ; "no, we didn't allow you to go"
so, I can't go ..


but, why ?
why did I feel that I must go ?
why I can't stay with my Lord and my Lady ?
I want , but I can't ...

That's my problem ...

I hopes my Lady and My Lord would understand ..
why I'm leaving ...
even I still didn't know , when I'll leave .

but, someday ...
I'll really have to leave ...
I'm sorry My Lady ...
I'm sorry My Lord ...
Please forgive me ...
I can't do my work perfectly ...
and , I was fail ...
fail to do my most important work .

I was fail to protect what I should protect ..
yes , I have failed ...
I'm so sorry ....

dear , My Lord and My Lady .... 



Regards,

Himeko Ichijo